this will have to be short. as i can hardly bear the misery i am going through now. my body feels heavy and i feel like collapsing….. and in the midst of all this i have got so much work to clear. work has grind to a halt as the last couple of days has been torturous.
sleep has been elusive. the constant waking up and few hours of dozing off left me frustrated and in a burnt out state. i felt like a complete zombie. my mind on the other hand has not been at ease and has shifted into an over drive mode in a world which seems to have broken up into tiny fragments….. i wish i can just disappear for just a moment, until all this is over…..
may can never be over……
how i wish…..
in times like this, i would like to immerse myself in my work. however, this time around, i had totally lost interest in my work. this is bad…… very bad, considering i am very passionate about my work. i need to channel my attention back into it. MAYBE the transfer is a good thing. the more i think about it, the more possible it being a reality. wonder how it will change my life…… if i sounded desperate here, it is because i am……. never have i been so unclear in my head, unclear in my mind, and unclear in my life.
but i am also a believer that no matter what life throws at you, you have to stay resilient. you need to tough it out. you have to keep working at it. do what you think is right. keep on trying……
i am trying…….