1. just as simple as that…….

    just as simple as that…….

    (via chescaacakes)

     
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  3. i dreamed of the kiss last night….. that one you lose yourself in…. back to the place where we belong…..

     
  4. I misses you so much…… :*(
every day, especially today……
wish we were back to the days when we can spend the nights & days holding each other……

    I misses you so much…… :*(

    every day, especially today……

    wish we were back to the days when we can spend the nights & days holding each other……

     
  5. Think I’m addicted to your light….. and your eyes…..

    (Source: youtube.com)

     
  6. sigh! wish my pathetic mind would shut off for even a second. i also have a ton of things on my to do list. while i can attempt to speak with some assurance about responsibility, i can hardly achieve even a single task to be strike off….

    and being in my current situation, one can only attempt to look for indulgence distraction to take the mind off current issues for the time being. the mind however is vulnerable and just like the song above by Bruno Mars:

    Give me this one shot for my pain, One drag for my sorrow. Get messed up today, I’ll be ok tomorrow. One shot for my pain, One drag for my sorrow. Get messed up today, I’ll be ok tomorrow.

    times like this, liquor becomes your best friend, your confidant as soon as you touch it. minus the guitar though, becoz i can’t sing for shit.

     
  7. we are all broken & wounded….. we have all those painful memories that keep us up at night crying and wishing we were with someone else  or someplace else…..  we spend our days wondering what might happen, rehearsing the “if onlys”, “what ifs” and “why not” in our mind…. sometimes wishing life’s journey took on a different route…… wondering will there be a fairy tale ending……. we feel terrible and that we are unable to recover and everything will never be the same again. we feel everything seems to be literally falling apart around us constantly, and there’s nothing we can do.
but  wait for those moments to pass. all you really can do is take cover in a storm shelter and wait. we might be broken now, but if we stay resilient , someday we can be whole again. we can't undo what has been done, but we can move on with our own life. these moments and days when we feel lost and scared will pass someday. it will not be forever. we just need to hang in there….. even if its by a single thread…..
continue to live your life…… 

    we are all broken & wounded….. we have all those painful memories that keep us up at night crying and wishing we were with someone else or someplace else…..  we spend our days wondering what might happen, rehearsing the “if onlys”, “what ifs” and “why not” in our mind…. sometimes wishing life’s journey took on a different route…… wondering will there be a fairy tale ending……. we feel terrible and that we are unable to recover and everything will never be the same again. we feel everything seems to be literally falling apart around us constantly, and there’s nothing we can do.

    but wait for those moments to pass. all you really can do is take cover in a storm shelter and wait. we might be broken now, but if we stay resilient , someday we can be whole again. we can't undo what has been done, but we can move on with our own life. these moments and days when we feel lost and scared will pass someday. it will not be forever. we just need to hang in there….. even if its by a single thread…..


    continue to live your life…… 

     
  8. Its Getting Worse Everyday……

    this will have to be short. as i can hardly bear the misery i am going through now. my body feels heavy and i feel like collapsing….. and in the midst of all this i have got so much work to clear. work has grind to a halt as the last couple of days has been torturous.

    sleep has been elusive. the constant waking up and few hours of dozing off left me frustrated and in a burnt out state. i felt like a complete zombie. my mind on the other hand has not been at ease and has shifted into an over drive mode in a world which seems to have broken up into tiny fragments….. i wish i can just disappear for just a moment, until all this is over…..

    …..

    ..

    this may can never be over……

    …..

    how i wish…..


    in times like this, i would like to immerse myself in my work. however, this time around, i had totally lost interest in my work. this is bad…… very bad, considering i am very passionate about my work. i need to channel my attention back into it. MAYBE the transfer is a good thing. the more i think about it, the more possible it being a reality. wonder how it will change my life…… if i sounded desperate here, it is because i am……. never have i been so unclear in my head, unclear in my mind, and unclear in my life.

    but i am also a believer that no matter what life throws at you, you have to stay resilient. you need to tough it out. you have to keep working at it. do what you think is right. keep on trying……

    …..

    ..

    i am trying…….

     
  9. Sheldon: What’s the difference? In the winter, that seat is close enough to the radiator to remain warm and yet not so close as to cause perspiration. In the summer, it’s directly in the path of a cross-breeze created by opening windows there and there. It faces the television at an angle that is neither direct, thus discouraging conversation or so far wide to create a parallax distortion. I could go on, but I think I’ve made my point.

    lol?

    not today :(

    (Source: youtube.com)

     
  10. the butterfly has been elusive so far…… till now. 
but when it sits softly on my shoulder, for the first time in a long time, i am absolutely terrified.
i am without a courageous heart….

*this song made me cry :_(

    the butterfly has been elusive so far…… till now.

    but when it sits softly on my shoulder, for the first time in a long time, i am absolutely terrified.

    i am without a courageous heart….

    *this song made me cry :_(